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The hardest thing about losing you is that it didn't just happen once. I lose you every single day that we don't speak. When I wake up in the morning and reach for my phone and hope to see a message that isn't there, and when I go to sleep at night after I realize that the only person I want to moan to about how crap my day was, isn't there. And I lose you in all of the moments in between, in all the hours of silence that go by where I do nothing but think of you, go to call you - but then I don't. I lose you when I watch certain films, listen to certain songs, and go to certain places that are all tainted with certain parts of you and how you make me feel. And I used to think I could only miss you when I was alone, but that's not true - I miss you when I am around someone else, too. because they aren't you. But you're always there....somewhere. I can't not think about you. It's only when I'm asleep that I get a break from it, from thinking and wanting and missing. But then I wake up following day, roll over, check my phone, see that you didn't text me and I just know I'm going to feel it all over again..